Not your usual upbeat blog.
Not your usual "Be Strong" talk.
Not the kind of news anyone wants to hear.
But then again, everyone hopes it doesn't happen to them, someone you know or worst, someone you love.
Hear me now, I will never question what God has in store for all of us. Even in my darkest days, I still have a magnitude of faith to carry my family and I through these rough times. I cannot see the light at the end of the tunnel just yet, but with the continuous love and support from family and friends, I hold
my head up high, each and everyday.
Annako. (My Child)
The news of my mother came late last night. News that have literally rocked my world and turned it upside down, (for now.) As I listened to her gasp, pause, and try to hold it together. She said, "Annako, I have cancer."
It felt like it literally knocked the wind right out of me. As I sat there, it seems like the world was spinning around me. This can't be happening, I said in my head over and over again. I tried and tried to hold it together, and then a wave of helplessness came over me, as I felt like a vulnerable little girl, crying out for her mommy. The kind of cry when a child does not want to see her mommy go.
"No.. mommy, mommy I love you... mommy no.. I want to come home.. mommy.."
As I sat there crying out to my mother of 56 years. Helpless is what I felt. She tried to comfort me on the other end. She told me to be strong.. and that is what I am doing, staying strong with enough faith to move mountains. A sense of calmness comes over me as I continue to praise Him in this storm!
The Sheer Reality.
When reality comes knocking, sometimes you don't want to open the door. Like my good friend, Anna said, you have to come to terms with it, you can't keep it locked up, hoping it will go away. (Thanks by the way Anna.. these days would have been tougher, if it wasn't for your continued love and support!) So that is where I am today. Taking it all in, one day at a time. Talking to friends and finding support all around me. (Lynne, thank you for being there!) I do believe in the power of prayer, as I ask you to keep my mother and my family in your thoughts and prayers, for God to grant us all the strength during our time of struggle.
With much love from this side of the world, even in my darkest hours!