For you Mama:
I don’t get to see her often.
I can’t even say I even talk to her on a daily nor weekly basis.
I try to stay strong to make the distance bearable.
Even though being so far a way from her hurts my heart so much.
When she calls, I laugh, I always say positive things.
But it’s just a way of hiding how I really feel.
Which is sad... like a piece of my heart was ripped out of my soul and left for her to hold onto.
I was barely 18 when I left home, a child, with a child myself.
It’s like one day I woke up and I had to pack up and leave.
Afraid. Heart-broken. Worried. Not wanting to leave her side.
But at the same time.
I put on a brave face. I did not want her to think I could not do it.
I wanted her to be proud.
Of the woman I know I could be, and now the woman I’ve become
Nearly a year ago.
She called to tell me she has cancer.
I was so heart-broken by the news.
I was angry, hurt, lost, confused, frustrated, and scared.
To this day I don’t think it has sunk in deep enough.
I could not be there for her, as I would have wanted to.
That pains me.
Mommy I grew up, your baby girl has a family of her own now.
And there are days, I see my mom in me.
The way I carry myself through out the day.
The things I say and how I react.
So, she may not be physically here with me.
But she is in everything I say and do.
I’ve learned so much about life.
Because of you, I know as a mother “I Rock!”
You will never know how much you mean to me.
There isn’t enough words.
I love you Mommy!
"Her children arise and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praises her." Proverbs 31:28(NIV)
There are days I am overwhelmed by caring for my children and then some. They fill our lives with demands like checking homework, meals, play time, diapers, and the constant "Mommy I want this, Mommy look at this, or Mommy hold me.." Not to mention the many expenses children bring! When I'm consumed with thoughts of how demanding children are and how I'm feeling like I've already stretched myself thin, I start to lose sight of the little treasures right in front of me.Sometimes I let the bad out weigh the good and become plagued with "Mommy Guilt". Is there even such thing as "Mother of the Year" award?
Mother's Day is a day for women to receive appreciation for all the endless loving things they do for their families. It is a day to thank our mothers and mother figures for all the loving support throughout our lives. Mother's Day is also a day for mother's themselves to be thankful that God has blessed us with children. Most of all, we can each be thankful to Him for mothering us despite our faults.
I hope everyone has a great weekend!