with emotion at the moment...
I had a shoot today.. that will undeniably brand my heart with the overwhelming feeling of appreciation for those that go above and beyond to help those in need. I had the privilege honor of photographing this family and just capturing this little window in time for them. I could've shot all day. What I wouldn't give to enter their home and capture them as a family, in their own environment, to witness the interaction, and most of all the love between all of them.
A family of (counting) 11. Eleven! The minute we met them till the last shot, they left me speechless! The kids were so well behaved, helpful, sincere, and overall just kids. And mom and dad.. ahh, mom and dad, simply amazing. (That word will be over-used in this post, btw). I literally felt like crying the entire time.
I came out of that shoot wondering if I have or am I doing enough in my time here on earth. Some days I get so wrapped up in the little things, the everyday problems, money issues, things I want but don't need. The need to want to become bigger and better. Don't get me wrong, there is nothing wrong with any of that. But my focus on life just shifted a bit today (okay a lot). And I'm left looking around my house and my options and feeling a bit selfish to be honest. Sure I'm not gonna be the next Queen of Humanitarian, but I'd like to touch that surface. I'd like to give more than I take. I'd like to use my talent/gift and give back 100 fold to those that don't get the opportunity to do so.
I've always had conversations with my husband about the thought of expanding our family. (Which he relates to my girlfriends having babies all around me) I know that medically, we can't. But I never shun the idea of adopting. I'm sure my husband would prefer we were in a better place. We can barely make it to the next paycheck these days. But I think a lot of our issues are more of a discipline issue. Now don't go on texting me, calling me, asking me if I'd just gone insane. I'm not headed down to the adoption agency tomorrow. I'm speaking hypothetically. I have to say, I do enjoy the peace and quiet in the house now that they are all in school. But I do admit, I've always had a soft spot in my heart for children (babies). I love them to pieces. I am a nurturer, by heart. I find total satisfaction in caring for my family. Even to this day, I could literally feed them with a spoon if they weren't so independent and grown. The point? Is that there is always room in my heart if I am ever faced with a situation that I would need to extend my heart and home to another.
We've placed hope and given our own kids a solid foundation for a great future.. why not extend that love? I look at this photo and think, who knows what kind of life she would've had if not for these amazing people.
(tear) I totally could've just added the whole "For just 30 cents a day.. you could save a life.." quote in there. But all kidding aside. These people are truly amazing with one of the biggest hearts I've witnessed in a long time.