... and I'm not talking about cyber-netting either.
I found myself sitting outside all day.. with the neighbors (gasp).
Blame it on the beautiful day or my oh so very friendly puppy who says "Hi" to everyone! And in return, everyone on the block loves him! Whatever it was.. I took a big step out of the norm and socialized, outside my computer networking system. (gasp, again)
At one point of the many conversations, I think I stepped out of my own body.. walked around this group of ladies in the middle of the field, staring at that expression on my face, trying to decipher it. Is it sincere? Do you really want to know? Ahh.. the military wives sitting outside their home, chit-chatting while the hubby's are at work. It's the SAHM's in one place.
But instead of walking away... I found myself, sitting among the new faces in the middle of the field as our children pranced around us. I said "hi, I'm Ronalyn, Isabel's mom." and forgetting all their names in return, I'm so bad at that! Daring myself to try something different.
I'm not gonna lie.. I'm not that "friendly" neighbor that sits outside my home looking to chat, asking questions, and knows all the children's names. I'm sorry. I don't even know the people who live to the left of us.. and they've been there for 4 years! It wasn't till we got our puppy last year, I felt like I was initiated in the "owners with dog association" aka, all the other families with dogs. I finally talked to our neighbors, in a full on conversation.. and they've lived near us for the past 6 years!
But I found myself enjoying this gal's company. It's not the first time I've bumped into her.. I've stopped and chatted for a little while. Again, it started with the dog.. he ran to their little girl and played with her.. and since then, everytime Kai is out, they come over. So we sat there, in the field, just chatting about anything.. Conversation flowed easily, I didn't feel unconfortable at all. Most of all, she was the kind of woman.. who was sincerely happy about.. life in general. There was a certain "aura" about her that sent positive vibes. And I liked that. Before we knew it 3 hours passed, Kai was desperately trying to find shade, and I think I even got a tan.
I can't remember the last time I stepped outside my home to socialize. I still get that "stinging" feeling when I think of my "military girlfriends" that I said good-bye to nearly 5 years ago. It's hard to make friends, only to say good bye to them when you finally feel like you kow them. Exhibit A, my son had to say good-bye to a friend today, and I didn't think he would cry.. but he did.. and hard. It never fails. We military families, meet someone and will have to let them go. No wonder we walk around with our guard up. Next month will be hard for us, we will have to say good-bye to a family who has been like a second family to my children. I feel like our children grew up together... they call me "mommy" and my kids call their parents mom and dad too. My heart is already aching thinking about how my kids will handle all of this.
And here is my "social-bug"... Another lesson learned from this 4 legged creature...
Stop.. and enjoy the company of others.