Sometimes the only way to find my way back, is to go through the motions.
When I got back from Hawaii, I literally dug my own hole and stayed in it..
It was so hard for me to get out and enjoy the things I once loved, I could not find the motivation to excercise again, or even cook dinners! But instead of trying to do it all in one day.. I took baby steps.
I got out and met up with friends, enjoyed lunches and long dog walks.. to just.. exhale.
Saturday we all just bummed around and watched movies..
I enjoyed watching Ryan Gosling, I mean the movie Drive.. quite honestly, the movie was not my fave, but Ryan kept me entertained. I actually really enjoyed, Real Steel with the family. I thought I was just gonna head downstairs and scrap but found myself really enjoying the movie.
Sunday was my long run. 6 miles was on my training log. I really had to psych myself up for this one, considering I just started running a few days ago and could barely make 2 miles! A few days ago it was hard to believe I actually could run more than 3. But, I lietrally sat down and envisioned how far I wanted to go, telling myself that I've done this many times and that I can do this. Who knew a little pep talk could carry you a long way.
I did it.. and I had to stop and take a photo of my favorite path to remember this moment.
It really is mind over matter. Sure every muscle in my body hurt like hell, my lungs hurt, and my legs were on fire.. but it didn't compare to that feeling of finishing what you set out to do. And as I turned into our street, 6 miles didn't feel so out of reach.. I envision myself rockin' the next 2 half marathons.
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I used some down time (in between the kids, housework, cooking..etc) to catch up on Project Life. A lot of it is mostly photos, but I will insert more journaling.. once I sit and type out my notes from my visit back home.
Project Life Week 4 & 5
love those scrapbook pages filled with lots and lots of photos. and wow... that path is beautiful, but I can't imagine running all those miles in that cold. Talk about determination! And I HAD to laugh... I haven't seen Drive, but Ryan Gossling was SO yummy in Crazy, Stupid Love, too... and glad you got caught up in Real Steel. I love that movie! Quite entertaining, and Hugh Jackman was easy on the eyes, too. ha!
Posted by: michelle carrillo | February 13, 2012 at 11:32 AM
Keeping you in my prayers!
Posted by: adrienne | February 14, 2012 at 06:21 PM