This simple yet poignant quote pertains to many facets of my life.
How many times have you gone through moments where you would like a "do-over"?
How many times have you simply fallen off that bandwagon, we call life, and steered in the wrong direction of a one way street, and think to yourself.. "What am I doing?"
The thing about the past.. is simply that, it's the past.
It doesn't matter how many times you've fallen, the only thing that matters is if you get back up.
Life has one constant movement... and it is forward.
Last year was filled with heartache, pain, drama, and lots of changes that left me wondering "What am I doing?" I've sat on that question for a while.. pondered whether life will "show me signs" or "knock me upside my head" and say "get the ef up!" Well no such sign came and the only person that can get me out of this "funk" is me. I've "sailed on by" for far to long and I'm ready to stand on my own two feet and take charge, take responsibility, and move forward. We've lived here for a year, and I still feel like I haven't "lived" yet.. (Miles of solo running, self discovery, and therapy will help me get over this "slump.") I have yet to see, but for now, I choose life.. I choose to move forward.
"I hope you live a life you're proud of.
And if you find that you are not,
I hope you have the strength
to start all over again."
F. Scott Fitzgerald
I've been embracing the "everyday" since this clarity in maintaining a healthy balanced lifestlye. I've become somewhat 'obsessed' to say the least. (At least it's a healthy obsession). But like all things I get "fired" up about, I go gung-ho and I await the moment where it "fizzles". Well, here's the thing, I'm not fizzling! In fact, I want more.. At first the goal/challenge was to eat better. To toss all the "bad" carbs out the window and embrace more fruits and veggies. And we did just that. But as I'm reading more into the different kind of foods we eat, I'm starting to realize why they built this supermarket, Whole Foods that's 11 miles away. I started to eliminate dairy, even soy, and even flour and sugar.. replaced it things my body can break down and digest (almond/coconut milk, coconut/almond flour, stevia)... And I noticed changes in how I I feel. It didn't end there, along with training for a the half marathon, I've started lifting weights. Er' goes the presumption that women will get too bulky. It's rather the opposite, I feel stronger with a noticeably leaner body. Which leads me to confidently say, "When you feel good on the "INISDE" you will feel good on the "OUTSIDE". My transformation needed to start from the inside out, rather the other way around, which I've done for years. I'd run 10+ miles only to eat "crap". Which clearly did not get me any where but back to Point A.
It's only Wednesday but it feels like it should be Friday... Happy Hump Day!