I blogged this quote before when I was in a writing rut, which by the looks of my abandoned blog, has been quite a few times. But when my teacher wrote this on the board on my first day of English class, I knew, I would liker her... a lot! Out of all the classes I'm taking, I was most hesitant about this one. The idea of a "Writing" class scares the bee-jezus out of me (says the person who has had this blog over 8 years). Mainly because all I've ever known is to "write" for myself, to express myself for the sake of listening to myself, not to be nitpicked over all my grammatical errors. I mean I do run self check, but let's face it, if an English teacher were to skim through some of these passages, I'd have red marks all over the place. But after meeting my English teacher today, I know she will only help me grow as a writer. I'm so INSPIRED right now (yes all caps, my typography class would say "Keep Calm and use the CAPS lock") Another class I'm in love with, by the way.
So as we examined what this quote meant to us, I realized why I have always loved to write, hence me being up a little later than usual, expressing my excitement for this new chapter in my life. I can literally feel myself moving forward. And you know what, it feels good. The past few years, although good to me, I spent a lot of time in a safety net where I knew what to expect day in and day out. There's nothing wrong with that, but this soul of mine was always meant to "fly" and soar to greater heights. I feel like I've spent a good portion of my life invested in my family and my children, and I wouldn't have it any other way. But I rarely did anything for "myself", most mothers don't. This is where I feel fortunate to have had them at such an early stage in my life, albeit, it was a challenge to do things that way. But I can now shift that focus onto me, at this somewhat "youthful" age.
Going back to school as a full time student was a tough decision to make because I'm naturally selfless and the idea of devoting so much of my time to other things rather than my family almost seemed "selfish". But with only a few days in, I could not be happier. It's almost like my mind is "thanking" me everyday for feeding it new information and allowing myself to grow in that area. I have a new found "love" for learning. If I was sitting in this English class 20+ years ago, I would act the same way some of the kids act, sitting on the desk scrolling through their cell phones and not taking any of this information in because they are too "busy" with discovering life as a 20 year old. While I on the other hand, know that if I am gonna invest my time and money, I'm going to give it my all. And the passion for this is so much greater, my appreciation level is deeper. I want to learn and I want to be better. And NO, I don't want to spend this time on my iPhone.
There are so many thoughts that cross my mind throughout the day, I keep a journal of notes throughout the day. This weekend I will sit down and share them with you as it amuses me, and it may entertain you as well.
For now, my alarm is set for 5:30 am. and this mom of 3 along with my 2 beautiful fur-babies needs a fully rested mom to funciton tomorrow.