As I sit reflecting on the past 365 days (as I listen to iTunes tops songs of 2017, Ed Sheeran "Shape of You" playing in the background) I'm wondering if I feel any different? As most naysayers of not wanting to sound cliche on making New Years Resolutions, I don't necessarily equate the new year to "New Beginnings". For some reason or another, that mood comes in the Fall (a lot of reflecting around that season) followed by Winter and the Holidays (that's reflecting + expectations + comparison of the previous holidays). So naturally when that New Year rolls around and the clock strikes midnight and we are ringing in the new year, I've already dived into my wants, needs, expectations, hopes, dreams, goals,etc for the new year.
I'm still reflecting on my word for the year... I haven't had time to sit and stew on a few words. But these are my past words :
2015 : Grow (cultivating, harnessing, developing, becoming) -- who I want to be in every facet of my life.
2014 : Observe
This year, we rang in the New Year with full hearts and the most joy I've felt in a while. We rang it TOGETHER as a FAMILY under ONE roof. I couldn't have been more happier. It was then I knew what mattered the most. I've been so hell bent on the idea of feeling unaccomplished (thinking I should be further along in my life by now, somewhere sustainable, where my college degree actually meant something). But, I realize that these MOMENTS are what makes LIFE worth LIVING for. The five of us, together as a family, eating, drinking, laughing, taking photos, making the most of the minutes we have together.
I'm still processing it all and it's my first day back at work after spending a good week with my family. I'm eager to document them all and get into some rhythm where I'm writing at least once a day. Just today, I was thrown off guard by a new opportunity, so as I sit here editing my resume, I'm feeling both nervous, excited, and afraid all at the same time. There's this feeling as if I'm standing at the edge of a cliff (once again) and wondering if I should take that leap. What does my gut say? She says "Go For It!"