Murphy's Law states that "Whatever can go wrong, will go wrong.." And honestly, lately that's exactly what it feels like. Almost like I'm tumbling down this steep hill and I'm taking with me all the bad shit that life is throwing at me. Just when I thought, "Oh it can't get worst than this... oh but it does." Today was a prime example of getting knocked down (over and over again). I literally felt like huddling in a dark corner and yelling at the world, "Why Me?" But, the human spirit can surprise you with it's resilience and ability to get back on it's feet no matter what, we bear down and get into survival mode, for me, it's the unwillingness to let this "darkness" take over. Also, it helps to be surrounded by people that love and support you. There is a reason why God says, "Two is better than one..." Ecclesiastes 4:9-12 Right now life has taken some major twists and turns for my family and I, but I am using this time to step back and find the clarity that I need. I'll be digging deep doing some deep soul searching. A while ago, I bought a book recommended from a dear friend called, The Desire Map. At the time I bought it, I felt to busy, to caught up with life, to really sit and really submerge myself in the book. True, right now, it seems as though my smile has turned upside down, but I know it won't last for long.